CPA Review Days -- that was one of the most stressful period of my life.
I’ve never been too emotional in my entire life until I hopped into review school. I was very sensitive. I am crying most of the time and I felt like giving up a couple of times. Even reached the point where I questioned myself of why I chose this path.
And I almost backed out the night before the board exam. After all those restless days and stressful nights, I still felt like I wasn’t so ready, like feeling ko, wala na akong natandaan sa mga pinag-aralan ko.
This was the time when I was in a great cram trying to squeeze everything in my overused brain,
studying Auditing Theory less than an hour before our Pre-board during the CPA Review.
(photo taken by the bestie)
I messaged my mentors hoping to receive some words from them that could at least push me to keep going. Hello? Ilang tumbling na lang ako ‘til the finish line, tas gi-give up lang?studying Auditing Theory less than an hour before our Pre-board during the CPA Review.
(photo taken by the bestie)
But that was honestly what I felt. I doubted myself. I was too afraid to disappoint everyone. “My family invested so much in me. I’ve performed quite well during my undergrad. So people are expecting for me to pass it all at once. Pero paano kung hindi ko ‘to maipasa? I will disappoint a lot of people. I will disappoint even myself. Wala akong mukhang maihaharap sa kahit kanino kung ganun.” Yep, those were my words then. I know they weren’t healthy, but hindi ko na talaga naiwasan na mag-isip ng ganun. There were many days that I stayed so long in the shower. Crying. Listening to worship songs to at least make me feel better.
Even a few days before the board exam, I was not anymore able to focus well. I am opening my reviewers, reading, but I wasn’t able to absorb anything. Lumilipad utak ko. Dami kong naiisip.
Here's a tip: Huwag nang umasa na you could still study a week before the board exam. If kaya naman, finish everything before that para scan-scan ka na lang thereafter.But despite everything, I saw my name from the list of the October 2017 CPA Board Exam Passers and it was the most surreal moment of my life yet.
It just feels good to reminisce those days of my life. I can’t believe, nalagpasan ko na.
To those CPA aspirants out there, laban lang. Sooner, you’ll reach that point in your life where magbabalik-tanaw ka na lang sa mga hirap na pinagdaanan mo & you could finally release a sigh of relief because you’ve already done it. Nasa iyo na ang titulo. Kaya wag kang sumuko. Pahinga lang ng konti, tapos laban ulit. :)
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