spontaneously writing on here again like i used to. i don't have anything specific in mind to share about—i just missed typing down here to ramble about life and anything in between.
funny that at the beginning of the year, i actually thought i would have more time to blog this year. i was hopeful, but life happens as it always does. so now i no longer mind if i could still get to update this blog or not. i just want to go with the flow and blog whenever i feel like it.
hmm... when i was younger, i would wonder why adults always seemed to be in a hurry and grumpy and were short-tempered even to little inconveniences. now, i understand because at some point, i am that "adult" already. with responsibilities left and right, it feels like the days are getting shorter and shorter—an hour seems like just a minute now. with lots of things to do, i always feel like i needed to move faster than i used to. a long morning routine now became a morning rush. and even an 8-hr sleep seemed to be a luxury aleady. and i'm tired. constantly. plus this summer heat is becoming unbearable, and the last thing i would want is to be inconvenienced. dang, girl. i used to be so patient. now, idk what happened. lol.
i don't think i can live my whole life this way, though. i don't want a life lived in a rush. i don't want to always be in a hurry. i want to take things slow. i want to live simply, slowly and mindfully. i don't want to always be rushing to get the next big thing, but i honestly feel like doing a lot and living in a rush are the means to survive these days. but actually, they're not. they shouldn't be. it's just that... i don't know.
now that i am actually typing these thoughts out of my head, i realized i really have to do something already. i have to get out of this rabbit hole sooner rather than later. otherwise, i'd be doomed.
and i no longer know what else to say. my thoughts are all over the place and my mind is in chaos, so here's a sunday currently to somehow save this blogpost from all the mess.
READING
i am currently not reading anything recently, but i plan to start reading a new book this week - i'll keep this blog posted (hopefully lol)! =)
WRITING
i'm not writing anything either othen than this blog post. i have not written anything physically on my journal these days for quite a while now and it's probably the reason why life has been quite chaotic lately. journaling helps me big time most especially on overwhelming times like this, but i haven't been making time to sit down for it. gosh, my bad.
LISTENING
i'm listening to yeng constantino's songs on repeat right now. it reminds me of my highschool days soooo much when i can still mostly relate to her songs. also, she was here last night for capiztahan. i love to sing her songs in the karaoke, and of course i can't let that opportunity to see her perform live pass by. i went to see the event with my cousins and aunt. she's a performer indeed and i would want to see her again next time that i get the chance to on a much better and closer view.
THINKING
honestly thinking how i can survive this life. at this point, all i can say is, i'm tired and i badly wanna get out of this fast-paced life so bad.
HOPING
really hoping that i could be able to manage my time well this time. gradually. one step at a time.
NEEDING
i'm in need to master the art of time management really bad. i won't expand any further, but please, if you have some tips and tricks to share, i'd appreciate it so, so much! or maybe share your own struggle with it to at least let me know that i am not the only one? haha!
FEELING
obviously, i'm feeling messy and chaotic. i can't keep up with household chores. i can't keep up with my laundry. you see? this life is one huge mess these days. i just can't. i can't live in this chaos.
huh, i'm just glad that i am able to let these all out.
on another note, when i was younger, all i wanted was to have a job and work until idk when. i wasn't really that interested to learn things about running a business and actually thought i wasn't born to be a business person. now, my interests have changed. pretty recently, i have been really fascinated to learn how businesses work. anything that i like or need, i always think of selling the same to others 😁 recently, i enjoy learning how to utilize social media to sell products. i try to build facebook pages from scratch, creating logos and whatnot. it's been fun!
i thought i'll just do accounting my whole life, but i find it interesting now to try things that are out of my comfort zone. also, i guess my accounting knowledge definitely gives me a good advantage in running a business, so i gotta put it into good use, right?
this new venture that i am taking is actually one of the biggest reasons why i'm pretty much living in a rush these days + breadwinner duties. it's been tough, i must say. and to add, i have been taking a managerial role at work more seriously now. so yeah, that's pretty much a bit of an update about my chaotic life as of the moment.
hope life's been treating you well! :)
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