trying again

Sunday, December 30, 2018


again, i was tempted to make a new blog and start anew as a way of starting another year, but nope, i don’t need a new one just yet only to abandon it halfway through. this time, here’s the rule that i need to follow: do not make/add another one if i am not letting go of my old one/s. just so you know, i already have enough of blogs to run, actually more than i should have, but i don't know why i can't be contented at times.

i’ve always wanted to be consistent with posting stuff and i am actually motivated to do so since another year is starting once again, but i don’t want to make any promises anymore, then break them the soonest, so perhaps it’s way better to just go with the flow.

i’ve had a lot of broken promises
 (to myself) in the past, and thinking about those just frustrates me – really frustrates me. i was never consistent, as you can see, but nope, i don’t want to dwell on them any longer. i just need to stop putting unnecessary pressure on myself ‘cos i have enough of them already.

for the nth time, i just have to be clear with my purpose. i need to clearly identify the main reason why i decided to put this up again after all those failed attempts in the past. i know i have mentioned this for idk-how-many-times already, but all i want now is a place where i can keep notes and memories of my day to day life, a place of those moments that will mold me to whoever i will become, and simply a place where i can go back to one day and see how much i’ve grown.

this 2019, i hope i could achieve on making this space that place.

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sincerely,
riz

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