I guess, this is really something worth posting.

Omg! I survived the first semester of this academic year. Hooray! That was one freakin’ semester. Actually, no words could really explain what I’m feeling at this moment. Mixed emotions. Whoa! I’m happy and sad at the same time. Happy, that I am, oh wait, no, not just me, but “we” (SnG peeps, our section) did it for this sem. We’ll face the upcoming semester still together. Omg! Omg! How awesome is that? But half of me, feels sad because I failed. Yes, I failed. Idk if it’s only one subject or more (but hopefully not *crossed fingers). I haven’t seen my grades yet because it wasn’t reflected in the portal yet, but our prof already gave us some clues. I feel frustrated with myself, but I got no one to blame. Everything was my fault. I was the lazy ass. I feel stupid for wasting my time too much and then regret it right after. Geez!

I’m just thankful (more than thankful) that our prof, gave us another chance. Yes, I cried, we cried, and our prof did too, but still, I cannot deny the fact that I feel upset. Really upset with myself. To never get a grade below 1.75 in my major subjects was my goal. Yes, “was” and that’s quite sad. I failed. Huhu. I faiIed. It’s so frustrating.

But lookin’ at the brighter side, God is indeed amazing. He really is! Omg. Thank you soooooooooo much, G! *cries an ocean* I’m so grateful, beyond grateful, like grateful for 99999999999x, that God gave me another chance to keep going on my chosen degree. Though I’ve been disappointing Him big time, He’s still giving me infinite chances. Let all the praises be on Him! To God be the glory! Thank you, G! Thank you! Thank you!

I may feel disgruntled of my grades this previous semester (which is my entire fault), but I swear, I’m getting back on track. And this time, it’s for real. I know I can do this. I know I can!

this is what we get of having no expectations – the outcome brings great impact and it’s very satisfactory.

i never thought that this camp would be this fun.  before the camp, i never felt any excitement. i even had that feeling of not wanting to go. i was anxious. i felt like i wasn’t ready to meet and socialize with new people with different kinds of personalities.



but i guess, i’m just so fortunate that i get to belong in a group of great people. i was in concinnity group no. 3, together with Angelika who's my former classmate. i’m just glad that i never found it hard to adjust. it was so easy to get comfortable with them. from the moment we first gathered together as a group, i already sensed a friendly atmosphere.



mostly, i was with the group the whole camp. we got to enjoy the activities together. we even got to chill and enjoy in between the challenges during our campus trek. we were able to share and hear one’s story. we shared so much laughter.

right at this moment, while i am typing this, i feel like i want to experience it again. i want to go back to the time when we first introduced ourselves to each other, passing that red ball from one to another so we could hear everyone’s story, being altogether as a group holding each other’s arms with a tight grip during the trust reach challenge, lifting each other one by one to surpass the nuclear fence challenge, feeling exhausted together as a group during the helium (idk-the-second-word) challenge, having our lighted candles hear our deepest secrets, overall working as a team, and the list goes on. i can feel this so-called “separation anxiety” right at this moment (i mean, right from the moment we had our group hug for the last time during the camp and yes, until now).









i miss Angie (though we’re just in the same department) with winning “hugot and pabebe lines;” Nong Juner, who they say the "kabayo" of the group – our mascot; Nong Paolo who’s the biggest among us and is just silent at times; Reneil who has this mysterious side that we somehow got to understand; Neil who’s always energetic and with a spirit of a leader within him; Nang Cylene with this very mature way of thinking; Sarah who’s loud, funny, and a little bit crazy; Pau-Pau who I rarely hear speak; and our CG facilitators, Leo and Artemio who assisted us and completed our group. i miss them.  i miss CG-3. i miss horse power.





three days seemed like way too short to enjoy each other’s company, but everything has its ending, they say, but this isn’t exactly an ending. this is just a beginning of our new friendship (hopefully).

joining the camp was really worth it – no regrets. i just hope, those people i mentioned above won’t forget me, because surely, I’ll never forget them.

no goodbye’s, just see you around. ursa! ursa!

that was one unforgettable weekend, indeed.